Man, December has been sooo busy this year, which has been good. I need to post some events that have gone by this month, but I needed to write some feelings I have been having down before I forget.
This month has been a great month for me. It has been a month of giving and a month of experiencing the true meaning of Christmas. I helped Melea with Freebies2Deals Secret Santa project and that in itself was a great experience. (more on that in another post).
Last night, I had the opportunity to bring dinner to one of my ward members. I don't know her, I have never actually met her, and besides the 5 seconds I see her and her husband walk into to church on occasion, our paths never cross. Jennifer, has a degenerative bone disease and has multiple health problems. She stays in bed most days and uses a walker to get to Sacrament (when she is up to it). I have watched this couple for quite some time. She is very "needy" at this point in her life. She is not very old, 48. She depends on her husband for everything. She has been on my mind this month and I'm not really sure why. She is one of those people who you just look at and you see the spirit of Christ in her eyes. Like I said, I don't know this lady and as of last night, had never met her, but for some strange reason I feel a connection with her. Maybe this is too personal to share on here, but until last night, I felt that something was missing.
Avery came with me to their home. It is a small apartment, not very well kept as you could imagine. I met the husband Randy for the first time, and felt like I knew him as well. He welcomed us into his home and we began to talk. I don't know if they have kids, they have only been married for four years and the love that he is has for his wife radiates throughout this tiny apartment. He was telling me that she is pretty bad. That the ambulance had taken her yesterday morning and she was starting to have a different type of seizure than she was having before. She was supposed to stay in the hospital and not come home, but she is stubborn and refused to be in the hospital over Christmas like she was last year. She wanted to be home with Randy and spend time with him. He is a convert as of six years ago and was telling me how much he trusts the Lord, and how the Lord knows what he needs. He needs his wife for a little while longer. They need each other. She graciously asks for help because she knows she can't do it herself. It touch my heart so much I started to bawl. His eyes got all red and watery and I couldn't help the tears. He said that she may or may not make it past Christmas. Her bones in her neck are so far gone that if she were to fall or have another seizure, she could be instantly paralyzed and/or end her life.
I don't know the reason that I needed to go over there, or the lessons I am supposed to be learning, but the true meaning of Christmas is that of our Savior. What a blessing it has been to serve and be served. I think it is really hard to accept service but if I wasn't allowed the opportunity to serve the families of our Secret Santa and the family in our ward, I would never have had these awesome experiences. I truly am grateful for this time and season. I'm sad it is almost here and over. I feel like this year has been one of the best years that I can remember. (maybe it's because I'm growing up!! ;)) I guess it's a lesson learned that it's okay to be served.
Avery was a sweetheart and asked if I needed a tissue in the car on the way home. I met Jake in the driveway and Avery ran into the house only to come out with maybe 2 squares of tissue for me. She is a sweetheart and I can't tell you how much I love that munchkin.
I hope that this season is a good one for you and your family.
Merry Christmas!
