Heaven can't be too far away

Yesterday was cute James' graveside services. As horrible as the situation was, it turned out really nice. I was amazed at how many people showed up to give their love and support. I overheard one of Mark's co-workers say that they shut their office down so that they all could come and support Mark. How awesome is that. How awesome is that when this world seems so bleak, there are people out there that will stop what they are doing and come and show their love and support.

At the graveside, Mark said a few words and so did my Dad. Bill, Mark's step-dad offered the dedication of the grave. I think that prayer said it all. The thing that stuck with me the most was that he said he had utmost respect for Jaymie. He was talking directly to her and I just really appreciated that as a big sister. Through this whole thing I have felt like I have needed to protect her. I have had no idea how to do that, but isn't that what big sisters are supposed to do? I felt like I just want to hold her and shun her away from all of the hurt and pain that she has been going through. It has been a week from Hell but I think laying his body to rest has been a good thing. Not that we need to move on, but now the grieving process can begin and hearts can begin to heal.

Today the sun is shining and what wonders it does to the soul. I am grateful for the knowledge I have of an eternal family. Cute James is waiting for his parents return and will one day run and jump in their arms. This has been a true test of faith. But I know we will see him again and can kiss that cute neck. See you soon.