Spill the beans...

I guess it's okay to spill the beans on here, since a lot of you already know and there are some things that I want to write down and don't want to forget. I am now 13 1/2 weeks pregnant, but at 8 weeks I started spotting and went to the ER. They drew blood, took a urine sample, did an ultrasound and everything turned out to be just fine. I remember sitting in the radiologist's room looking at the screen and seeing a little thing moving around. I didn't have an ultrasound that early with Avery and it took me by surprise a little bit. I know that at 5 weeks there is a heart beat, but I didn't honestly think that you could "see" the baby. I guess I figured it was too small. Silly, I guess to think that since technology these days in incredible. Anyway, seeing a little baby in there swimming around made me all that more nervous. If I had a miscarriage now, knowing that there is a baby in there, it would definitely be much harder than the two I previously had before Avery. It was so cool to here the heart beat beating at 162 beats per minute and knowing it was the right size for the weeks I was. But then the anxiety set in...of course. After a few hours in the ER, they sent me home and I went to bed. They put me on bed rest and told me not to do anything. (that is really hard when you have a 2 year old saying "mommy hold you", it broke my heart).

I have been so sick to the point where so far I have lost 13 pounds. I'm not sure that is really a good thing, (too bad it's not this easy when you aren't pregnant) but being sick is miserable. I have thrown up a couple times and it's more annoying than anything. Nights are really bad. In the beginning I would be so nauseated from what seemed like all day into all night. It would keep me up in the night and then next morning I was just too tired to do anything! Jake told me that I was really boring...but I don't really blame him, since all I want to do is lay on the couch! Luckily, it is now from 5 pm into the night and I can actually get some sleep. I went off of prenatals for a while which seemed to help a little. They upped my Zofran to 16 mg a day instead of just the 4 mg. 16 mg at least makes it livable, 4 mg didn't even take the edge off.

Anyway, I have since stopped bleeding and went in for my regular first appointment on September 8th and the ultrasound on September 22nd. How fun it is to see a little baby "waving" at you! You could see it's little feet and hands and it's crazy to think there is a baby inside of me again.

I'm horrified of having two little kids. I hope that I can keep learning patience. Some days I struggle and I hope that I can be a good mom to these little munchkins! Crazy! I'm going to be a mom of two. I was rocking Avery last night and was looking at her while she was sleeping and thinking how quickly these past two years have gone. She is getting so big and time goes by so fast. She says and does the funniest things and I wished that I could record everything. I have to remember just to enjoy those moments because they won't last forever.