So How much is too much?....

So here is the question of the day.....

Our little 1 1/2 year old puppy has a heart problem and a kidney problem and is going in today for an echocardiogram and an abdominal ultrasound (do you do those things on animals?!). She has a heart murmur and the vet is worried that she may have torn her artery. The blood tests also came back with results that indicate she has some kidney disorder as well. Lovely. No wonder she is so skinny. She has lost 6 pounds in the last month and she looks terrible. So, the question is....How much is too much money to spend on an animal? or do you not worry about cost? It could only come at a worse possible time. It seems so rude not to try to help her. I have never been so attached to an animal before her and it is hard! I had to take her to the vet on Friday and leave her so she could be watched and I felt like I was leaving my child! It was horrible!! I guess at the end of today we will know what she needs to have done, if anything at all...I hate that I am so attached to this poor thing. She is so stinking cute.

Gettin' bigger!! ...

I am definitely getting bigger!!! Yeah!! It's getting closer!!....

BTW...Thanks to you all for coming to my shower and those that put it together! Those that couldn't make it, we missed you!!

7 weeks and 3 days to go!! Ü

So, an update on this pregnancy thing! I can't believe that I have only 7 more weeks to go. It is really going by fast. I have felt a little bit better lately, although, I did have a break down last weekend but I think I was tired because I didn't sleep at all the night before! There are definitely good and bad days. I'm so retarded!! Anyway, I am kind of done being pregnant but trying to have a good attitude about it. I was driving home the other night and I don't know what she was doing in there, but all I could do was to watch my stomach go nuts! I started laughing out loud!! It is the strangest feeling of having a little person in there swimmin' around. I can't wait to see her and hold her!! I am getting really excited. I can totally tell she is getting bigger, not only because I am huge, but because I can feel her and move her from under my ribs! She is still quite active and who would have thought that a 4 pound baby could cause so much damage to my ribs! They are pretty bruised or they feel that way anyway. She loves to just sit right under my ribs. I will try to move her and not seconds later she is right back in the same spot!! I know there is not much room in there, but do we really need to sit right on my ribs?!! I love that she is in me and that we have that bond, as uncomfortable as it is. I have been told by a few people that it is lonely once they are born. That makes me sad, but I love having her in me. I love that it is just me and her! My ankles are pretty swollen and I can't wear my wedding ring anymore, or I wouldn't be able to get it off!! I go into the doctor on Friday, so we'll see what he says about all of that. They just keep telling me drink tons of water, but it is kind of a double edge sword. I need to put a potty right next to my desk at work!! I'm always in there!!! Gotta love it!

So, despite all of the physical things that I am going through, there are still some other things that I am having anxiety about....mostly having my water break on TRAXX!! Hello!! would that not be the most embarassing thing ever!! Then what would I do?!? get off and...???? call 911 to take me to the hospital?!! I need to get a plan in order and start driving to work so I don't have to worry about that! Oh, I would be so embarrassed!! and the fact that Jake doesn't drive to work either!! That would be quite the story to tell her... you were almost born on public transportation! No, I know it won't go that fast...but....you never know. I could be that 1%!!! The other thing that gives me anxiety is LABOR! I have to keep telling myself that all these other people went through it, I can do it!! But it looks SO horribly painful!!! I would suggest not watching the Miracle of Life if you are planning on giving birth. Even thinking about it makes me crazy!!!and the epidural...okay, I have to stop there!! I do not want an epidural, that thing is HUGE! and then there is the anxiety of being a mom! Hello?! I don't know how to be a mom! What if I totally suck at it!!! I guess that is part of life and learning! OHHH, I am stressing myself out! I think that is enough for today!!! Ü Gotta love being a girl with anxiety!!!

I think I share too much!!!

So, we are going private!!

So we were talking the other night about this whole blog thing (Jake thinks it is retarded! but I don't!!) and he is worried that I put too much personal information on it! Well, after thinking about how retarded this world is and how lame people are, I have decided that it might be a good idea to go private.....so needless to say, we are!! Ü

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